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-=break=- Mar. 31st, 2005 @ 05:06 pm
almost half of the requirements are through and right now i'm on a momentary break...and i suppose i could update on this site...

...well last time i visited my friend i came to the conclusion that his sisters rock!...well, details: i went to their house with my friends to chill and guess what...they were watching the BEATLES Anthology my friend bought for them from e-bay. he's such a nice bro., nwei, they are a gigantic fan of the BEATLES and i was a little envy with how they own a collection of almost all the albums of the beatles and also JASON MRAZ. not only that i was able to watch a DVD of Jason MRaz's concert and it was very relaxing...asteeg! gusto ko na arborin lahat ng cd's nila. nweis the song i discoverd there which up to now i still dig is SLEEPING TO DREAM by mraz...and just a recap for myself, these are the songs pla i'm highly addictive to for the past weeks and for the next i dno't know:

1. SLEEPING TO DREAM - Jason Mraz
2. GAP - Cattski
3. LIFETIME - Better than Ezra
4. HERE BY ME - 3 Doors Down
5. EYE IN THE SKY - Alan Parsons Project
6. YOU AND ME - Lifehouse
7. DAKOTA - Stereophonics (idol!)
8. LET ME GO - 3 Doors DOwn...again
9. BROKEN SONNET - Hale
10. SMILE LIKE YOU MEAN IT - the killers
11. MR. BRIGHTSIDE - The killers
12. MUST GET OUT - Maroon 5
13. TELL ME WHERE IT HURTS - MYMP (also ESPECIALLY FOR YOU and WHEN I DREAM -remakes)
14. a FIRE AND RAIN remake by a female, its acoustic
15. EVERY LITTLE THING and HOME - Dishwalla -old but nice.
16. GOOD KIND - michelle branch's band
17. IT'S ALL ABOUT THE LOVE - Sister HAzel

....that's all i could remember at this moment...and my break is ending soon. i'll just recap again when i have the cahnce. peace to all. rock on!
at The mOmEnt : relaxed
sIngiNg/HumMinG : read the entry

Feb. 24th, 2005 @ 03:41 pm
Maybe Tomorrow
by Stereophonics


I've been down and
I'm wondering why
These little black clouds
Keep walking around
With me
With me

It wastes time
And I'd rather be high
Think I'll walk me outside
And buy a rainbow smile
But be free
They're all free

So maybe tomorrow
I'll find my way home
So maybe tomorrow
I'll find my way home

I look around at a beautiful life
Been the upperside of down
Been the inside of out
But we breathe
We breathe

I wanna breeze and an open mind
I wanna swim in the ocean
Wanna take my time for me
All me

So maybe tomorrow
I'll find my way home
So maybe tomorrow
I'll find my way home

So maybe tomorrow
I'll find my way home
So maybe tomorrow
I'll find my way home

So maybe tomorrow
I'll find my way home
So maybe tomorrow
I'll find my way home

me13.
at The mOmEnt : sleepy
sIngiNg/HumMinG : maybe tomorrow

gutom Feb. 15th, 2005 @ 05:58 pm
So many faces, so many races
Different voices, different choices
Some are mad, while others laugh
Some live alone with no better half
Others grieve while others curse
And others mourn behind a big black hearse
Some are pure and some half-bred
Some are sober and some are wasted
Some are rich because of fate and
Some are poor with no food on their plate
Some stand out while others blend
Some are fat and stout while some are thin
Some are friends and some are foes
Some have some while some have most
Some are great and some a re few
Others lie while some tell the truth
Some say poems and some do sing
Others sing through their guitar strings
Some know it all while some act dumb
Let the bass line strum to the bang of the drum
Some can swim while some will sink
And some will find their minds and think
Others walk while others run
You can't talk peace and have a gun
Some are hurt and start to cry
Don't ask me how don't ask me why
Some are friends and some are foes
Some have some while some have most

Every color and every hue
Is represented by me and you
Take a slide in the slope
Take a look in the kaleidoscope
Spin it round, make it twirl
In this kaleidoscope world
at The mOmEnt : lethargic
sIngiNg/HumMinG : shine-collective soul

Jan. 22nd, 2005 @ 11:17 am


You Are a Peacemaker Soul





You strive to please others and compromise anyway you can.
War or conflict bothers you, and you would do anything to keep the peace.
You are a good mediator and a true negotiator.
Sometimes you do too much, trying so hard to make people happy.

While you keep the peace, you tend to be secretly judgmental.
You lose respect for people who don't like to both give and take.
On the flip side, you've got a graet sense of humor and wit.
You're always dimplomatic and able to give good advice.

Souls you are most compatible with: Warrior Soul, Hunter Soul and Visionary Soul


sIngiNg/HumMinG : bittersweet symphony - the verve

it's something diba ciong Jan. 20th, 2005 @ 05:15 am
"sometimes our future is dictated by what we are, as opposed to what we want.."

"it's a terrible thing for a girl to learn, that status is more important than feelings."

"it seems only the old are able to sit next to one another and not say anything and still feel content. the young, brash and impatient, must always break the silence. it is a waste, for silence is pure. silence is holy. it draws people together because only those who are comfortable with each other can sit without speaking. this is a great paradox."

"I am nothing special; of this I am sure.I am a common man with common thoughts, and I’ve led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten, but I’ve loved another with all my heart and soul, and to me, this has always been enough."

-The Notebook
sIngiNg/HumMinG : slide -goo goo
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» (No Subject)
                HAKUNA MATATA!!!
» ...nothin ever lasts forever...everybdy wants to rule the world
All for freedom and for pleasure
Nothing ever lasts forever
Everybody wants to rule the world.


today's friday...yesterday was a day i'll never forget. hayy...

i just lost my cellfone...it was a "modus" case and it hits me each time i remember what happened,wla q ngwa, it was a first time and the effect was so weakening,
i cudn't help but think of the consequences last night, kahit p cellfone lng un...

i may seem shallow pero i'm also the senti type when it comes to special events and memories. big deal sken un.
nanghihinayang p rin aq dun sa mga messages nung special peeps in my life. each night i try to reread those messages and now cudn't remember most of it and theyre gone 4ever. mas nanghihinayang ako dun kesa dun s mismong fone. un pic messge n ginawa q nun bkasyon n d q na mggwa khit kelan...special un kc it's my inspiration. the image i created there is the person i pray for each night. hay...nothin ever lasts 4ever. but gotta move on...maybe God is wanting me to change those things...to do somthin else...not just cherish those messages... they can be replacd soon...mahina lng tlaga ung memory ko kaya kelangan my copy aq nung mga special specials.

it's hard for something that is already part of your system to be just taken away...not by ur choice pa..

the lesson here maybe is detachment... material things shouldn't be what keeps you livin and happy. it's the peeps and the spirit of friendship and love that shud make us live the days of our lives...

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Ever seen a blind man cross the road
trying to make the other side
Ever seen a young girl growing old
trying to make herself a bride

So what becomes of you my love
When they have finally stripped you of
The handbags and the gladrags
That your poor old Grandad had to sweat to buy you

Once I was a young man
and all I thought I had to do was smile
Well you are still a young girl
and you bought everything in style

So once you think you're in you're out
'cause you don't mean a single thing without
the handbags and the gladrags
that your poor old Grandad had to sweat to buy you

Sing a song of six-pence for your sake
And drink a bottle full of rye
Four and twenty blackbirds in a cake
And bake them all in a pie

They told me you missed school today
So what I suggest you just throw them all away
the handbags and the gladrags
that your poor old Grandad had to sweat to buy you

They told me you missed school today
So what I suggest you just throw them all away
the handbags and the gladrags
that your poor old Grandad had to sweat to buy you
» you're a beautiful gurl and i want u to know it...

for the sake of keeping this journal updated...
it's been a tough term...the hardest term for me...LITERA1, ENGLSCI, MEASDEV,
i regret having them all at the same time in my sked...and the thursday full-load-no-break sked wasn't also a good choice...nweis the term is half way through and hope i don't fail in my math subjects... MODEALG, LINEALG, MATH 116...shecks...math major pa namn!...it was a matter of priority... and it's harder to deal with the english,lit,educ subjects that's why i had to sacrifice the time in my math subjects...nweis kelangan n magaral...lolz!

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For you I wanna sing a happier song
For you I wanna try to right all my wrongs
For you I'm gonna break my bad habits
There's a golden ring and I want you to have it
There's a golden ring and I want you ..
it's been a long tym...
For you I'm gonna sit and paitently wait
It's great if you're early, but it's fine if you're late
For you I feel love and I just wanna show it
You're a beautiful girl and I want you to know it
You're a beautiful girl and I want you to know it
You're a beautiful girl and I want you to know it
It's an infinite world and I want you ..

Once again
I am open
Once again
I am open

For you I'm a-waiting on the ticket line
I gotta get back
I don't wanna waste time
But the people are tired and the line is so long
So all I can do is sing this song ..


» ...behind the music: PARDU
hay...to everyone happy halloween!

PARDU had its first live performance in the acquaintance party last Oct. 29, 2004 in the National Sports Grill in Greenbelt1 Makati,,,that's it for the documentation...

HU! it was a tiring night and it was worth it. even though we messed up it was a nice first performance. there were the dropping of the egg shaker, breaking of the pick, wrong verses...but i guess that's natural for first timers...anyway it was fun. we don't care if the people didn't like the songs we played...for us it was a privilege to just be there...thanks to those who made the event possible and our dreams somehw reality. to the special people who inspired us, especially me, and to our friends who worked it out... cheers to everyone! you all did well in the party and it was a memorable accomplishment.

have a nice short vacation---------call me sun peeps! --->09224697979
» when the night is cloudy there is still a light that shines on me, shine until tomorrow...Let it be
i'm ____ and i,
got to get back to Him...
in him i find comfort, feel unconditional love,
and see the blessings of life.
He's the one who'd listen to my complains,
worries, disappointments,...
knows and understands my difficulties
how miserable, cruel ,whatever my life has been sometimes
or most of it..

He'll always listen...im sure.
time will be with me and these problems will come and go
gotta hold on and trust Him.
He'll never leave me alone...we'll need each other, my friends
...Hehehe

sing wit me,

When I find myself in times of trouble
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom
Let it be
And in my hour of darkness
She is standing right it front of me
Speaking words of wisdom
Let it be

Let it be, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom
Let it be

And when the broken hearted people
Living in the world agree
There will be an answer
Let it be
For though they may be parted there is
still a chance that they will see
There will be an answer
Let it be

Let it be, let it be
Let it be, let it be
yeah, there will be an answer
Let it be
Let it be, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom
Let it be

Let it be, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom
Let it be

And when the night is cloudy
There is still a light that shines on me
Shine until tomorrow
Let it be
I wake up to the sound of music
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom
Let it be

Let it be, let it be
Let it be, let it be
There will be an answer
Let it be
Let it be, let it be
Let it be, let it be
There will be an answer
Let it be

Let it be, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom
Let it be

---kinikilubatan kb?...hehe sori kung seryoso to.Ü peace.
» (No Subject)
"ang pag-ibig,
ganyan talaga...
ako'y nilamon ng pag-big.
ganyan talaga,
masaya..."

i wonder how it is without me hearing songs/music everyday of my 18 years here on earth...so boring! no mood setter, no inspiration, no beat to follow, no melody to soothe my soul, no words to tell me something about life or to make me say "hay..."...shet! so actually, there's one sure thing to enjoy this life...it's music my friends...i love my guitar and if i'd be stranded sumwhere i'd only need my guitar and a couple of strings, 4th strings specificlly...music has really been my passion...since the day i learned to turn on the radio and the tv, i've been hearing music...and asteeg...un lang it's hard to explain this...take away the color of the world but not the sound and the melodies that make this world and life far more interesting and colorful, relatively.Ü peace up!
» ...
this is probably the best "feel-good" song i've ever heard in my life! and the LYRICS...shet! gotta hear this guys!...u won't rgret its awesome melody...

don't know if I will always love you
I don't know if I will always need you
But I know that you'll find your own way tomorrow
I just hope I see you in the morning
I just hope I see you in this precious morning
And I know that there's always the dream tomorrow

I'm gonna try again today
To say what's in my heart
And pray for a better tomorrow
Make a brand new start
I'm telling everybody to turn it up again
Something's gotta change
Goodbye yesterday
Try again today
Something's gotta change

Maybe you can call me when you get to heaven
Maybe you should tell me I can go to hell
But I know rain or shine I'll be there tomorrow
Maybe it's written in the stars above you
Maybe it's just scratched out in sand
But I know that you'll find your own dream tomorrow

I'm gonna try again today
To say what's in my heart
And pray for a better tomorrow
Make a brand new start
I'm telling everybody to turn it up again
Something's gotta change
Goodbye yesterday
Try again today
Something's gotta change

I'm gonna try again today
To say whats in my heart
And pray for a better tomorrow
Make a brand new start
I'm telling everybody to turn it up again
Something's gotta change
Goodbye yesterday
Try again today
Something's gotta change

---sTEEG!Ü
» leave the things that seem to weaken us...
If i could choose to live my life
there'll be no if's to say
if i would choose to hold ur hand
there'll be no words to say
without thought
without pride
leave the things that seem to weaken us
without fear
without lies
let the magic turn ur life around
if i would choose to touch u there
would u touch me there too
if u would choose to stay with me
i'll spend my life with u
without thought
without pride
leave the things that seem to weaken us
without fear
leave ur lies
let the magic turn ur life around
If i could choose to live my life
there'll be no if's to say
if i would choose to hold ur hand
there'll be no words to say
without thought
without pride
leave the things that seem to weaken us
without fear
without lies
let the magic turn ur life around
if i would choose to touch u there
would u touch me there too
if u would choose to stay with me
i'll spend my life with u
without thought
without pride
leave the things that seem to weaken us
without fear
leave ur lies
let the magic turn ur life around
If i could choose to live my life
there'll be no if's to say
if i would choose to hold ur hand
there'll be no words to say
without thought
without pride
leave the things that seem to weaken us
without fear
without lies
let the magic turn ur life around
if i would choose to touch u there
would u touch me there too
if u would choose to stay with me
i'll spend my life with u
without thought
without pride
leave the things that seem to weaken us
without fear
leave ur lies
let the magic turn ur life around
If i could choose to live my life
there'll be no if's to say
if i would choose to hold ur hand
there'll be no words to say
without thought
without pride
leave the things that seem to weaken us
without fear
without lies
let the magic turn ur life around
if i would choose to touch u there
would u touch me there too
if u would choose to stay with me
i'll spend my life with u
without thought
without pride
leave the things that seem to weaken us
without fear
leave ur lies
let the magic turn ur life around
(repeat100000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000x)
» ...pick yourself up when you're down
...i knw ther's somebody out ther hu cud relate to this...
...being happy with your decision matters most...it's your life that is your prime priority...


Love Is Tragic
Love Is Bold
You Will ALways Do What You Are Told
Love Is Hard
Love Is Strong
You Will Never Say That You Were Wrong
I Don't Know When I Got Bitter
But Love Is Surely Better When It's Gone

'Cause You Wanted More
More Than I could Give
More than I could handle
In a life that I can't live
You wanted more
More than I could bear
More than I could offer
For a love that isn't there

Love is color
Love is loud
Love is never saying that you're too proud
Love is trusting
Love is honest
Love is not a hand to hold you down
I don't know when I got bitter
But love is surely better when it's gone

'Cause You Wanted More
More Than I could Give
More than I could handle
In a life that I can't live
You wanted more
More than I could bear
More than I could offer
For a love that isn't there

I got to pick me up when I am down
I got to get my feet back on the ground
I got to pick me up when I am down

'Cause You Wanted More
More Than I could Give
More than I could handle
In a life that I can't live
You wanted more
More than I could bear
More than I could offer
For a love that isn't there
» ...

i'm in blue...which for me implies happiness. finally i'm thru with the exams in math and intoset... the two subjects i'm afraid to repeat...well, that's not to be dwelled on ryt now it's all past.Ü and i'm eager to wake up on weekends feeling a lot more relieved and happier than what i'm feeling now.

sunday i get to play basketball agen...and that's a small event i'm largely excited to go to... of course i  get to be with my friends from highschool agen and when it comes to an all-boys school, the "good time" has a lot more leverage on it. like the "girl talks"and "girl gimmicks" only it's much more shallow and fun...hehe...nwei, i haven't played basketball for a long time now...the last was more than three months ago...and i'm getting bored with NBA live....so on to sunday!

saturday a lot to do but its still fun...i get to spend time with my friends from lasalle outside school...and we get to dance! suddenly i've become fond of this dance thing...well mababaw lang naman aq basta any activity that wud make me move or apply bodily skills msaya nako...and i've noticed my mind is alredi tired becoz of the exams becoz reading thru the entry agen there's not much life and clear expression of happiness in it...nwei, back to the topic,... saturday is something to wake up to...i get to be with jielene more and i'm very happy with that...see mababaw lang talga happiness ko...there are a lot of tiny events or things i feel happy about...nwei, back agen, saturday...thre's the usual lrt ride...the japanese corn...the jabe meeting plce...randall...the practice...all seems fun to me especially with jie around...hehe sorry ciong and i wud still attend even if jie isn't there...nwei, saturday...there...my mind can't process anymore....  

there...although i'm tired mentally i'm sure that saturday and sunday will be fun as i expect... cant wait to know wazzup with my old pals in southridge...hay...life...when you're tired you come to dwell on your life...and i cud say i'm happy with what i am now...i'm not sure tomorrow but i dont care...live by the moment...ideally that's how it shud be...peace to all...

 
...You could be popular 
You could be wanting more 
It doesn't have to be that way 
This could be beautifull 

Are you really gonna make it happen 
Seems a whispers sometimes louder than a scream 
Are you really gonna make it happen 
Life is free 

You could be a checkout girl 
You could be beautifull 
You give your all but it's not enough 
Is that the way it is? 

Are you really gonna make it happen 
Seems a whispers sometimes louder than a scream 
Are you really gonna make it happen 
Life is free 

Keep the dream alive 
Don't be affraid 
I'm suffering my life away
You know 
That's all I've got to say 

Are you really gonna make it happen 
Seems a whispers sometimes louder than a scream 
Are you really gonna make it happen 
Life is free...
                                   -arkarna

» calling on Spongebob!
... we need to watch Spongebob! jaz to have a "breath of fresh air"!

...if any one cud notice, the dominant emotion nowadays is the negative one...why are more of my friends feeling sad,down, or dramatic?? i can't figure out the true cause why most of us are feeling that way...where is happiness?... the joy of life!

...c'mon friends build up yourselves! there are still a lot of reasons to be happy! though i understand that there are alot of things, events and situations that could have caused you to act that way or speak out those words, i hope we wud all be in that good mood agen sooner...Ü

you don't need a plane to fly,
plastic wings cud make you cry;
kites are made for windy days,
lawn chair with balloons fly away!;
inflatable pants, you might as well skip;
if you want to fly, all you need is FRIENDSHIP!
- SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS
» ...gawin bang uso to!
...hay...suddenly this "supposed to be" personal journals have become the most visited site...everyone wants to share and read each other's journal...well, on the happy side, it's a good commu. for friends and they can get to the extremes of their emotions thru writing but then...there are instances where you didn't want others to read your entry and then next thing you heard was them talking about it...hay
...well, i really don't feel bad about it actually it's my fault...im blaming meself for not being that careful enuf...
...uhm, nawala ako...basta...next tym nalang uwi na kami...
» ...........................................di ko alam...
it's been a month now...u know wat im saying...hu!
» mistake no.3...?

u can die already! but don't.

nice to be back agen...Ü last week was difficult. i had a big big big decision to make and i believe i made the right one. it was kinda hard to speak it out. but thank GOD i've sed it. and life can go on now...

thanx to HANALEE for the advices...although i know it's really hard to open up abt. our past relationship, as you said we must learn from the mistakes. especially mine. thanx for encouraging me and being there. i would like to also say sorry abt. the way our relationship went thru before. friends!Ü we've moved on and hope our bond of friendship would grow tighter. luv ya friend!Ü i will always be here to help you. and promise i would change my way of thinking. tatanggalin ko na ung pagiging magulo ang icp...i don't want another mistake just because i was too coward to speak up. it would be mistake no. 3 already... thanx a lot.Ü

 


» has nice guitar riffs

 

fallin' by keahiwai...

---just modified it bcoz the original is a girl's song to a boy...

I wanna tell you baby
You're the one that Im thinking of
But your heart is still with him
And I think he's the one that you love
I only want you happy
Even if it's not with me
Maybe one day
You'll open up your eyes and you'll see

[Chorus]
That I think Im falling
Maybe I'm falling for you
Yeah I think Im falling
Baby Im falling for you

[Verse 2]
From the first time
You laid your lips on mine (not real)
It feels like the smile on my face
Will last till the end of time
But Im not so sure
That you're the one that I should pursue
My mind tells me no
But my heart only says that it's you

[Chorus]

Bridge:
Only time will tell
The mystery has yet to unfold
Who's gonna feel love's warmth
And the other left in the cold

[Chorus]
Yet still I'm falling
Maybe im falling for you 
yeah I think Im falling
Baby I'm falling for you
That I think Im falling
Maybe I'm falling for you
yeah I think Im falling
Baby Im falling for you
---well, if the girl i'm talking about cud read this...he'll know what's in my mind right now

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